These are the faces I am lead to serve

It's hard to know what the future entails.  It's hard not to question yourself in the choices you make or the things you do. But I'm not here to confuse myself.  I am here to serve.  I believe that no matter where to Lord leads me, it will be an experience of a lifetime.  I have a huge heart that I am ready to share with these children and I know they will find themselves comforted.  I am ready for them to show me things I've never dreamed of and to teach me more than I could ever learn in any classroom.

This is where I have been lead thus far, and I am ready to take it on with an eager heart!


Let us not love with words or tongue but with actions in truth 
1 John 3:18

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And it was written in the sky...

LOVE LIFE!

Thanks for the reminder Hol!

Remember

It was exactly one month yesterday when my world lost a very special girl.  It still seems unreal, but in time I've seen people begin to heal.  Since this has happened I promised myself I would love life the way she did, and I have to admit I could do a much better job of it.  Lately, I know I have been selfish.  I want to change that.  Just because time has passed doesn't mean I should forget what I have learned after all of this, otherwise losing her would be for nothing.  So I guess I want to take the time right now to remember.

Laugh at the moments of pure joy.

Smile because you're here.

Sing and dance with your friends.

Drive just to go somewhere.

Reflect on the past, and day dream about the future.

Enjoy the time you have, even if it's not what you want to be doing.

Be thankful for everyday because it's one more day to make new memories.

Cherish every moment.

And love life.

Young Days

Today, the subject of college came up.  As we were driving home from the beach someone said "College is the greatest time.  It's when everyone our age comes together and just gets to be young.  If it wasn't for all the classes, it would be perfect." 

 I've been thinking lately how lucky I am to be in this place in my life.  It's been great to experience these new things with amazing people.  There are so many people I've met that just have such unbelievable hearts.  I've enjoyed getting to know all of them and spending my days with them.  We are all growing together, finding ourselves, and it helps that we can hold each other accountable throughout these next few years.

Beach days will never get old with the people I love.  It's in these days where we find ourselves.  

Thank the Lord for this beautiful, relaxing day.

Praying for Guidance

The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.  I will advise you and watch over you."

Psalm 32:8

I just have to let go of all control and give myself fully to Him.

Love Life

Life is hard, but everyone knows that.  It's how you decide to handle the troubles that come in your way.  You can easily give up, but it's those who pull through who get the most out of life.  Within the last few weeks it's been too easy to see every thing that was going awry.  Losing people, saying goodbye, starting new, becoming more responsible.  All of these things have been tearing me down, but I haven't taken the time to look at the positives.  Though these bad things seem so dark, you can find beauty through it all.  You just have to look.  

I'm not here today to point out all of the wrongs that have been done thus far.  I am not here to mope around about things I wish I could change.  I'm here to live a full life.  One that people can be proud of and look up to.  A life full of laughs, adventures, and well learned lessons.  Everyday I can sit and wait, but I know there will always be something beautiful to come.  There is always something to appreciate and always something to look forward to.  It will be be hard to wait, but I have to remember God has me here for a reason.  And there is so much more He wants me to discover.

Focus...

Homesick

I forgot how demanding and lonely college can be.  It's been draining me down day by day.  I really wish my family could be here with me.  I know that's impossible, but it would definitely make things easier.  Spending the past few weeks with them makes me miss them even more.  I wish I could be stronger and not care that they are so far away, but that's not me.  I'm all about my family and I've realized how hard it is for them to be so far away.

I thought it would be easy to bounce back into things, but that's not turning out to be the case. I'm hoping this will only last a week or so, but I know this is one of those feelings that will be hard to shake.  I know I should be more thankful for being where I am today, but it's hard without the people I love the most by my side.  For now all I can do is pray for strength to make it through the next day.

Bittersweet Goodbyes

I love my family and home more than anything.  I love how comfortably I fit into my life here.  It's amazing to know I have somewhere were I feel so calm and relaxed.  I am lucky to have a place like this and people who love me so much.  Honestly, I don't really want to leave.  I don't want to leave my family and friends.  They are who have made me who I am today and I miss sharing my life with them.  I know they will all be here when I return, but goodbyes are never easy.

Though I have been blessed, I've realized maybe I've grown too comfortable in this life.  That is why tomorrow I will get on the plane and go into the unknown.  I am unbelievably blessed to be able to study across the country, meet so many incredible people, and experience things I wouldn't have been able to experience here.  As hard as it is to be so far from all of my loved ones, I know it is important for me to leave.  To make them proud I will continue to do my best even if it's on my own.  In only one semester I have grown so much, but I know I have much more to learn and see.  

I know this next semester is going to change me even more.  I am excited to see what else it brings my way and am ready for it!

Family of Rhythm

I love my dance family.  No matter what my mood is going in, I know I will always leave the studio with a smile.  It's amazing how you can take a bunch of girls who have nothing in common, but one thing, and have such a bond.  We are all so different, but dance is the one thing that brings us together.  We all have such a love for it that naturally we grow closer.  I guess it's the fact that dance makes us all happy.  Together we escape.  We can get away from anything that has been holding us down and forget about it for a couple of hours.  No matter where our lives take us, when we find ourselves back in that mirrored room, everything falls right into place.  Just like we never left.  I know we can count on each other because somehow in those hours of just dancing, we learn about each other.  We appreciate each other.  

Dance is a beautiful thing and amazes me all the time.  It's more than just a movement, but an emotion.  It's the mood of every girl on the floor.  We may be going through different things, but are able to express it the same way.  It's such an amazing therapy and I've realized how much I miss it.  And I will keep coming back to dance because I don't think I will ever tire of it.

Here's to the amazing fifteen years of dance excellence with fabulous people.  And here's to many more to come because we just can't get enough!

In Remembrance of Holly

LOVE LIFE