This week is just one of those weeks where it's hard to forget. I know my pain is nothing compared to her family's, but it keeps creeping back up on me. As I am sitting here in beautiful weather and everything seems to be going right, I wonder why God took such a beautiful person from people who loved her so much. I wonder why I'm here and she no longer is. I wonder when the hurt will go away, if it ever does.
I know the year is coming to an end and I thank God for everything He has done is my life during this first year of college. But this only means I'm one month closer to going back home to that studio where we shared so much happiness. I will be surrounded again by people who loved her as much as I did, and even more. The pain of losing her is always so much more real when I go back home and I don't want to face all of that again.
Right now I just wish I could take away all the pain and tears that are still falling. It never gets easier to think about and still brings me to tears every time. I just need to continue to pray for this loss and know that she is up there watching over all of us with her pink studded wings. Holly we miss you so much down here, but know that you are in the best of hands. Love you! Love life!
