The Stress

It's one of those times where all the stress keeps piling up, and I can't seem to get away.  Everywhere I look there seems to be something that I need to worry about, whether it's money, homework, or family.  I hate when it feels like the bad outweighs the good.  I know that I can't just make it all disappear and I know I can't handle it all on my own, but I'm having a hard time letting go.  I want to give it all up to the Lord, but something is holding me back even if the stress worsens.  I need to get away or find something new, but right now I just feel so stuck.  

It's crazy how I can be in the place I love the most and have been so thankful for and still feel this way.  I feel guilty, but these problems seem to be overpowering.  I keep thinking to myself that I need to get myself out of this slump, but that's just the thing I can't.  I can't do it all and I can't do it alone, so why is it so hard to put my words to action?  

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

[When I Go Down -Reliant K]