I wish I could share the love I've found in the Lord with everyone, but some people don't want it. Some people prefer to live their lives without that kind of commitment and I will never understand why. I can try and try again, but who knows if it will ever mean anything. It has been such a large part of my life and day by day I see it getting better. It's hard to continue relationships with people who see it as a joke, it is anything but that to me. As hard as it is and is always going to be, I feel like I can't cut them out of my life. Even if everything I say never seems to make a difference, maybe one day it will. I can only pray that I show the grace of God to others and hope that they will see it. I am not here to shove it down their throats, but to be there for them.
I pray that over the summer I am able to stay strong without all of my friends who share the same beliefs. I pray that people will see the change in me and not judge. I pray that in some way I am able to show who I am in Christ no matter what I'm doing or who I am with. I pray that I will not back down from my beliefs or keep them quiet like I used to.
This summer will definitely be a challenge, but I can't always be comfortable where I am... even if it is at home. I need to remember everything I've learned and experienced this past year because I know this feeling is right. As long as He is by my side, I will be okay.
